I am 21 and something. I have a job. I have friends and a boyfriend. I appear normal. But am I?
Sixteen
My eyelids stay shut
I won't let them move
They are all that's keeping me here
Keeping that wave upon the sand
I step out in dress and shoes
A vision of crimson
Pose Smile Flash
Frozen in time
Sunshine filters through
Everything invites me in
Clasp tight upon my breast
Verbose Gumption
Wind Ice Sunrise
Running along the dune
Directors Cut
He traces
Love on my belly
Safety a vague identity
The ocean rushes
Wave reclaimed
Dreams shattered
Eye's awake
Seventeen
When you're failing english
I am there, study notes in hand
When you're fighting with your boyfriend
I am there, listening
When youre abandoned by your friends
I am there, sitting by your side
Yet when I'm failing science
You couldnt care less
When I'm crying over a friend
So sit there and say nothing
When you abandon me
Well thats that
I am there, study notes in hand
When you're fighting with your boyfriend
I am there, listening
When youre abandoned by your friends
I am there, sitting by your side
Yet when I'm failing science
You couldnt care less
When I'm crying over a friend
So sit there and say nothing
When you abandon me
Well thats that
Eighteen
Would they even notice?
If I went insane?
Would they even care?
If I went insane?
Would they even talk to me?
If I went insane?
What if suddenly?
I just stopped talking?
or stopping running around?
Would they even help?
Would they even notice?
If I went insane?
No! They'd be too embarrassed!
Too horrified and ashamed!
Twenty-One
Are things really different to then?
No?
Yes?
Even I can't answer that.......
